I don't know why but I do

It's been a month and I'm starting to recognize the all too familiar signs of the end; the ex, the ignoring of calls and the absence of her smile... I think it's the loss of the smile that kills me the most. I mean, that's the best part; the knowledge that you're the reason for that smile, that wondrous thing that somehow manages to make those circles under her eyes disappear.
Today, I was waiting for her to walk up the steps from the student parking lot (I get to school before her) and an old friend was standing beside me. He looked and saw my excitement, my happiness to see her again... and then fall of my face when I saw her ex, the most recent one, next to her; most days she's accompanied by either him or another ex. She was laughing like I used to make her laugh and he had that grin I have every time I'm with her.
Looking at me, my friend coughed and said, "You don't deserve this, man."
Biting my lip to keep myself from agreeing, I thought back to the scars on my brother's face, the girl who's heart I hurt, the wrongs I've done, and the pain I've caused. "Maybe I do," I said, closing my eyes. "Maybe I do."

Check this out!

OK, so I'm having a contest to see who's the best editor out there (plus, I'm bored and I want to get a little of that competitive spirit going).  Below, I've placed a basic picture of a anime band that I drew for D.R.A.C.S. (Notice that there are too many band members: there are 5 in the actual band).  I've added an edit button underneath it.  Clicking on this button will allow you to apply several edits to the image which will appear after you save and close out the editing window.  NOTE:  Refreshing this blog page will get rid of your edits; please right click on your image and save it!  After you have edited it, send it to the band at dracthegroup@gmail.com for them to judge and pick the best one.  They will announce the winners on April 2, 2013.  The winner will get to be a part of the recording of their new album and may even get to be in one of their songs!

Creative Website

I was searching through the Aviary website, a favorite resource of mine for photo editing tools, and I happened to scroll down on their About The Company page and I have to admit that this is the most creative thing I have seen in a website in a very long time.  Using animated gifs for thumbnails of the various creators to make them look like they are alive.  Check it out!!!

http://www.aviary.com/company

New Twinkies

So, it seems that Little Debbie is making the new Twinkies, which are, surprisingly, the same as the old Twinkies.  Saturday I spent at my girlfriend's house, going through the old jewelry and such that was in the fire.  Saturday night I spent at Cookout near the Big Lots on 29 preparing for a Harlem Shake. Unfortunately, the Harlem Shake was so much cooler in person than it looks in the video.  Sunday, I did homework like a mad man and cleaned/restored my girlfriend's jewelry.  Today I gave her the jewelry and promptly fell asleep in AP US History.  Here are some of the pictures from the Harlem Shake.

Internal Conflict- First Person

I have a feeling that I'm going to lose a bunch of potential readers just from the title; despite it's appearance, I'm not talking about anything particularly "English-classy".  How many of you have had that kind of yearn to do something but you know it probably won't turn out well or is morally wrong?  Most circumstances I would say f*** it and do it anyways and deal with the consequences with ease.  However, in this circumstance, with this being my senior year and everything, the potential consequences are incredibly high.  The fact also presents itself that I might not really gain any certain kind of satisfaction from doing this; it seems that I would, but I'm not really sure if in the end I really would feel any sort of accomplishment.  I would potentially stop something from happening that may just resolve itself in time.  I don't know; that's my rant for today.

Exhausted and Mental

Or, I guess you could just say mentally exhausting.  Finally making up that snow day today, so I don't have President's Day off. :(  Feeling, once again, overloaded with homework.  Kind of starting to wonder where she gets all of this paper to print off all of these assignments.  Took my girlfriend to see Ile's concert and then to get Cookout (she had never been before!!).  She enjoyed both, though we really didn't understand the music; classical never makes sense.  Here's a happy (and tired) President's Day to you all.

Saint Valentines Day

Happy Saint Valentine's Day to all of you!  I'm going to assume that none of you call it that and I can understand why; what on Earth does present-day's Valentine's Day have to do with Saint Valentine?  To start, I'll edumacate you on who Saint Valentine was.  Obviously, Valentine's Day is a romantic holiday that probably goes back to ancient Roman pagan holidays, just like every other holiday.  Depending on what country you're from, Saint Valentine is either a priest, a bishop, or a group of 14 martyrs.  Just out of preference, I'd like to go with the priest story; it's a little bit more exciting and less depressing.  In Roman law, soldiers were supposed to be bachelors at a certain period of time; Valentine was a natural romantic and couldn't stand this.  In response, he rebelled against the emperor and performed secret marriage ceremonies for the Roman soldiers.  La de da and all that, Valentine was eventually put to death and people saw him as a saint and Valentine's Day was created.  This also explains why we see a half naked little boy with wings shooting arrows at people to make them fall in love on Valentine's Day; cupid is a essential part of Roman and Greek mythology.

So I've gotten roses and concert tickets for my girl friend today and I'm hoping she likes them.