Weirded out and tired of being angry

For some weird reason, I always feel so freak'n angry around my family.  It's weird and I hate it; yeah, I've got plenty of stuff to be pissed off for, but I don't want to shove my broken self at everyone.  Like I said, I don't want anyone to deal with the nightmare that continues to torment my mind.  Life is so weird.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

 Junk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is:

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand